It doesn't seem foolish, we are all going through the same roller coaster. Like I said, I was like that for weeks. That's when discovery of OM made me connect all the pieces and find some peace with myself that it wasn't all my fault. I think your thoughts are totally normal at this stage.
Also, I haven't done any of the 40 day challenge. My W will not talk to me outside of counselling (mediation) and even in there, it is only about separation logistics. Hopefully at some point I can start doing it.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
