Hi Pink - interesting what you say about feeling like a little girl again when you think about the difficult things that happened to you. I have been talking to my IC about my tendency to people please & say what I think others want to hear.

She was saying that stuff like this is often a childhood legacy & that we learn behaviours/approaches that keep us 'safe' as kids then & we carry them into our later lives. She said - but you're 47 now....you don't need to do that anymore!

I think you are making so much progress - even though you may not see it right. Ow amidst all the pain. Your marital crisis may prove to be a catalyst for you to work through things from your childhood, leading to a more joyful and fulfilled life for you. You may well look back on this awful time and feel it is the best thing that could have happened for you.

Just keep moving forwards with your IC support - you've got this :-)

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus