Thanks for your kind words. I just mean blind because I gave so much importance for everything else but my R w/H. And now he is done with me, and all the house chores, appointments, cleaning, washing, you name it. And now it is not as important as my M was.
I am actually on anti-depressants since sometime in 8/14 - I do not have a family history of anxiety or depression what is good. When I started feeling that I couldn't stop shaking like bamboo in a storm, I saw my doctor and she prescribed me some mild anti depressant what like you said, is taking the edge off.
Saw H this morning when he came into the house to pick up the boys. You know, my boys are not so young, so he does not need to literally pick them up, they walk to the car. My S14 was already in the car and he came in after the S17. They were not late though. I asked him about taking S14 to his Orchestra Concert tonight because I have my IC and don't want miss it. H was all smiles, hugs and kisses. He said was not problem at all and that he will meet me there for us to see the concert.
I noticed that H really freaks out when he sees me. I was actually very calm this morning. He gets very nervous trying to be extra nice. It's almost as he is reading DR or DB. It makes me laugh now...what if one day I find out that he is using the techniques on me, it would be funny!
S14 told me that H told him he never cheating on me. What??? He is not suppose to be talking to him about this. I don't get it but he really wants to make sure I understand he did not cheated on me, even when he went to see OW. Why it is so important for him I don't know. Maybe because the D and custody.
