The only reason I am hard on CeMar is because I really do love this guy (he's helped me more than he'll ever know with all of that excellent research of his), but at SOME point, one must stop reading, and start DOING. He came this close --> || to DOING something about his situation when he told all of us he was going to enroll in dance classes... we were all THRILLED that he took some initiative. But then, nothing. That makes me very, very sad, but it also makes me less tolerant of his venting because he refuses to try anything to change his situation.
Now it could be that he is trying things, but we typically do not hear about that from him. All we hear about is how things SHOULD be, and how hard it is for him.
I KNOW how hard it is for him. I pray for him daily that he finds his courage to take the bull by the horns. The kind of anger he displays can only come from a well of very deep, deep hurt. But the only way he is going to get out of that well is to start climbing. I guess I come down on him hard because I so want for him to find a solution, and if I could do it for him, I would.
Having said all that, however, I realize you are an adult and you can take care of yourself. It is not my place to run interference for you. I apologize to you and to CeMar.
Corri
The person who risks nothing,
does nothing,
has nothing,
is nothing
and becomes nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but he simply cannot learn and feel
and change and grow
and love and live.
He's forfeited his freedom.
Only the person who risks is truly free.
