Sunday 5:20 am. At last I got some sleep but I'm wide awake now. I am disappointed that hairdog has not read my suggestion to him on the "boot on other foot" thread yet. There are numerous ways to connect with our LDs but sometimes it takes someone else to spot them for us. Emotionally I am see-sawing from highly motivated to dispair and back again. I'm motivated because I can see positive signs that I would not have noticed before but I dispair when I think of the desire gap. I want all of the things that Dave36, CeMar etc. list in their proposed letters to W but there is a mountain to climb to get a fraction of it. As CeMar says, what counts is DESIRE. I asked W if she had her perfect husband (ie not me) how much sex would she like. None she replied. That's one hell of a desire gap. Actually I have been thinking. I bet if she was married to Alpha Male she would be quite hot. She is a woman of strong character. The trouble is I am relatively easy going so she tends to make all the decisions. Her life is going to change though because the Alpha Man in me (and there is one) has come out to play - and he's Confident, Sexy and Strong! For example: I (not W) have organised a big bowling outing tomorrow. There will be 5 adults (me, W, my 2 brothers and their Ws). Six children varying in age from 16 down to 3. It will be fun but different from usual. Usually I compete with my brothers. We all want to win. Not today though. I am going to relax and help W and D16 and make it a public (but not overbearing) display of my love for my W. I am going to give her plenty of attention (but I won't make a nuicense of my self by joining in and spoiling the W's gossip) but I will make sure that she knows that winning her is more important that winning the game.
