It is past 2am here in England and I can't get to sleep again. This time it is not because I have been rejected and am depressed. It is because I am so excited about the future. I have had a wonderful evening. There was nothing on TV and we had a quiet family night in. Everyone was in a good mood and there was much laughing and joking. I have had some really good advice especially from all you LDs. I see that confidence is sexy to an LD and I know that I need to flirt with her. I am saying to myself constantly "I am confident, sexy and strong". I did a lot of flirting this evening and I carefully noted what happened. Eye contact is the most important aspect. I noticed that when I talk to her after a second or so I tend to look at the bridge of her nose instead of her eyes. I made a point of looking into her eyes for longer and to my delight she was looking back into mine equally. In fact she started looking to me for conversation instead of the children. At bedtime I asked if she would like a cuddle and she snuggled into me spoon-style. I deliberately did not get too amorous and left my hand on her tummy - I adore her tummy - she has grown all my babies in there. I got aroused but instead of pulling away slightly so she would not feel it (I had got into that habit to avoid scaring her off) I was strong and confident and stayed close. She must have liked my rhythmic throbbing because she did not pull away. I am in heaven at the moment!
