I have so much I want to say to you, but I think Underdog covered it much more eloquently than I ever could.
Life takes us down paths and as we travel them we change, for better or for worse. I don't think you were blind. I think you were doing what you felt you needed to do. To keep your house going, to take care of your sons, to take care of your H. Ypu were doing the best you could, at the time.
You've got a great starting point. And you have to take it one step at a time. Please talk to your IC or doctor about possible treatment options for your anxiety and any depression you might have. It could be traditional medicine, holistic, or a mix. I myself finally bit the bullet and went on anti depressants about a month ago. Kicking and screaming (ok, depressed and mopey was more like it) but I did it. I have found it's helped take the edge off and level things out so the lows aren't so low anymore.
((Pink)) I admire your bravery.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15
