New & seeking advice on what to do

[DaneMom]

Wonka, you asked me to elaborated on my withdraw from H in last post...

I've always put a lot of pressure on myself to be successful professionally, back in 2009 I was laid off from a job that I had only taken 9 months prior ... Lay off was due to the down turn in the economy at the time. I took it hard that I wasn't working and contributing to the household income. At the same time H started traveling for his job. While I was supportive externally, internally I was resentful that I was stuck at home by myself as I was the one who was always traveling for work and loved it. Besides the job hunting, I didn't know what to do with myself, H was gone during week and all friends worked. I became lonely and spent a lot of time at gym working out and walking the dog... Basically felt worthless and dependent on him. Not a comfortable place for me. To top it off H rekindled his passion for snowboarding/skiing and spent his weekends doing that. (I have back/knee injuries that prevented me from joining him)... So he and I were not spending any time together.

I always swore that I would not become a nagging wife so I would never speak up about how I was feeling about both the job and H not being around to spend time with me. Instead I kept it in and grew resentful more and more ... Pulled away from him... He in turn picked up on that .... Withdrew from me... And we spiraled from there.