Do I walk away from WAW? (3)

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Still rolling along here. Asked W to chip in some cash for rent and bills, and she asked her mom for it. Today while texting about the logistics of me getting money from her mom (ugh I hate this), W texts me that she's just checked her bank acct and has overdrawn by $140. I have nothing to even say at this point. It's like she's just skidding from crisis to crisis.

Yesterday I picked up the boys from their short day of school. Ws BFF was there and we made plans to get our kids together after school. We had our usual interaction, she complimented me a lot on being there for the family, asked me a lot of questions about W and about our plans - holidays, moving out, etc, which I largely deflected. As it was getting time for W to be home, bff says she has a text from W that she's had a brutal day of fighting with Her boss (her boss seems pretty intense, but from what I've witnessed W has blown off a lot of things at work lately), and a bunch more very sad sounding stuff. When W walks in the door, she looks upset, crying. Without thinking I just bolted to her and gave her a firm hug. A comforting but rather than a romantic hug. She thanked me. Then I excused myself to go over to see some friends and watch the football game.

It's so strange, feeling so hurt, detached, indifferent, angry towards my W, but still when I see her in pain, I have to do something for her. Luckily it was just a brief display of support before I got th heck out of there.

Today w texted that I had thrown out some of her carrots when I cleaned out the fridge yesterday. They were purple carrots, which I didnt know existed, so I looked at them and thought they had rotted. on the way home I stopped and bought a single carrot, and handed it to her when I got in. She thanked me and hugged me.

Now she's gone. Still don't white know how I can feel myself movng farther away from this person. The truth is, I don't quite like what she's become.