Again, I have to break with some of the advice given by others. I strongly encourage you not do anything making you uncomfortable.
If you are not comfortable with a separation agreement then do not participate. There doesn't appear to be a legal reason for the document so it seems mostly ceremonial.
When making decisions ask yourself the following:
Can I live with the decision I am making if the worst-case scenario occurs?
And I want you to truly consider the worst-case scenario with every decision. It will help you get clarity.
For example (and I give this example because I am pretty confident this will not happen) you want to take a drink tonight. Are you prepared to live with the worst-case scenario? The worst-case scenario is this drink triggers the addictive mechanism in your brain and you can never stop drinking ever again. You end up losing your business, your children and any chance you will ever have with your wife. You are despondent, get in your truck, drive to the liquor store, and end up running over a child. You go to jail for vehicular manslaughter.
This is the worst-case scenario. That one drink had meaning. It is no longer a drink...it was the rest of your life.
I know you understand this because this is what is taught in recovery. Defining consequences of rash behavior.
So when making decisions right now...use the same process. Consider everything in light of the worst-case scenario instead of the best-case scenario.
I know you are hurt. Anyone in your shoes would be hurt right now.
The important thing is to stay focused while dealing with your hurt.
Hang in there. I know I've said it before but you really are doing better than you think you are.
