11:20 pm How quickly success turns to disaster. Everything was going well. Both had baths. Get into bed started to talk but conversation soon returned to the "Stop putting pressure on me" defence to every thing I say and the infuriating "Don't know" answer to all questions. W askes no questions she just fends off anything I say with "don't know". I had a brainwave and asked her if she had married her perfect man - the one put on the earth for her - how much sex would she like. After a pause she said "None". I told her that I felt so sorry for her. We talked a little more in defeated tones and then 16yr old D burst into the room. I told her (fairly sharply) to leave us alone but W said "No, come in I want to talk to you". I stormed out and am now typing this. At this moment in time I want out. I want to search the world for my true HD soulmate. I used to think there were no HD women but recent experience and HDWs on this site give me hope. I am 46 in 2 months I am running out of time. CeMar and hairdog can't you see you're flogging dead horses. For christ sake get out before you too have my 20+ years of this frustration, disappointment, dispair, loneliness and emptiness. The book is bull to make money out of us suckers. I'd be very surprised if more than 1% NDs get "cured". They are like statues but we are Volcanoes! There must be women out there that can say "I love you" once a day instead of once in a lifetime. For financial reasons I'm going to stay for the rest of this year then next year's resolution is to GET A LIFE
The little voice of love inside me is crying out - Aquarian you are my inspiration please tell me what to do.
