It's really great that you can enjoy "at least a bit" of the inner peace you feeling.
Regarding to your questions, I will need to think about them and have time to do so. It will help me to organize my thoughts and think about some solutions.
I don't really feel I am a victim, but many times I felt sorry for myself, my suffering, and I would think that H was just a selfish bastard that wouldn't care for no one else but himself. Maybe it was all my perception, maybe I was totally in denial that I was not doing any good to anyone, but I was suffering because I was not setting priorities, boundaries, and so on.
I will need time to sort all this. My head will explode soon.
I will write more later today. I am at work now and need to finish some patients stuff.
