New here and need to know I'm not crazy

[UpperCu]

You're on my mind Sam. I read in a book that there is such a thing called cheap forgiveness. The MC sessions should really be for you, so you have a safe place where you can let your feelings be known about your pain and hurt. This can also help your H to feel relief in the day to day once he sees you are trying to move on but not holding him ransom all the time.

I know this is so difficult, you have been through so much already. Rehashing everything might feel painful, but only you know when you're through talking about your hurt and ready to move to the next step.

Praying for you.