Busting this Divorce - Moving Out

[HPoirot]

Thank you for making that clear Wonka. She is clearly angry and resentful and yes her reasons for her anger with me and our life are real. I share a lot of them. I can see how she can see her problems being solved going this way despite the immense pain she's causing all of us including herself. She's just so vehemently angry.. then she gets sad and depressed. Hard to see how anything could be worth all this destruction.

When she came in here a little while ago... I see we both have the same high stress on our faces. I will work to get back to the calm cool guy I was the other day.

Funny... she called me b/c she was having car trouble. Got mad at me b/c I didn't answer.

I'm just tired of her now after these past days despite the fact that I am in a lot of pain over her choices. I know there's nothing I can do or say to soothe her anger and cause her to have faith in us again. There was so much I wanted to say during her speech this morning.

And thank you for you script. Regarding me truth darting her A... I see she has separated her actions in 2...

1. she does not love me now and does not see a future for us.

2. she wants her AP to solve her problems.

Whenever I truth dart her on her #2... she says what we're going through has nothing to do with the #2. She always throws #1 back at me. So, even without the A, she still won't get past #1.

So I'm done talking to her. I'm ready to happily learn to live on my own with s11 for 6 months. Then I'll re-evaluate and go another 6 months depending. Then that's it.

Also sticking with the 95% reduction in contact with W. No R talks. Not even if she starts talking right? She says she wants to be heard. She told me "At least OM listens" after I stopped really talking to her.

And that you so much for saying that I am DBing. Often I am not sure. It gives me hope that I'm really doing something that might bring us all together again as a family one day. Despite how rough this has been... part of me still wants that. If she ever does... I know we can work it out. We're both good people in a bad place.

She'll be home any minute now with s11. I can be cool calm and happy around her.

I have a lot to look forward to.