Separated and Need HELP!

[Faith20]

Okay, had kind of a crazy night last night. H called me 4 times in a row and then texted me and said to call him back ASAP. I was nervous to call since the last time we talked he said he wanted to think about things before we talked next. But because he called so many times I was worried it might be an emergency. When I called him back, he said there was some Sh*t going on and I needed to be completely honest. He and his brother were for a public safety department and his brother is *fingers crossed* supposed to be hearing whether he is getting hired in the next academy this week. Well, apparently yesterday during work, his brother got called into the chief's office and was questioned about spreading rumors about other members of the department. One of the people accusing him of spreading the rumors is a chief, who also happens to be the dad of one of my best friends. So H called me to ask if I had said anything, and started interrogating me up and down. I kept saying no, but would pause every now and then because I was feeling so pressured and was totally caught off guard by all of this. H's brother and I have had differences in the past, and one of the biggest problems for me in the M is that H's family and friends would accuse me of stuff and I never felt that H believed me or had my back. Now, even though we've been separated for 3 months and I haven't been around H's brother, friends or family, I feel like the same thing is happening again. I thought there might be hope for me, but now I'm worried that this situation is going to completely ruin any chances I have for reconciling. I don't know what to do. I've been having major anxiety all day today at work and can't focus on anything. I keep waiting for a text or phone call from H saying it's all my fault and I caused this.

Any advice on what to do next would be greatly appreciated. I am lost and starting to doubt myself, and lose the confidence I have worked so hard to gain. The last 3 months I have really focused on being the best person I can be and changing my life. I don't want all of that progress to go out the window.