Hi all been awhile so I thought I'd jot some stuff down.

Had a great weekend with the kids. Friday went shopping. Got new basketball shoes for the oldest and some other stuff. Watched some movies. Saturday we woke up made the popcorn and cranberry garland. Went and got some pictures with Santa and ballon animals. Then went to the oldest basketball tournament. As PM would say still think about her actions to much but this stuff bothers me. So I just write it down. Saturday morning the oldest tries to get a hold of his mom to get his basketball jersey for two hours(on his phone). When she finally calls, she calls me and I hand off the phone to the oldest to answer. His comment why the heck is she calling you. So we get the jersey and she tells me she can only make it to one of his games. So sad she use to never miss this stuff for them. Well they did very well against some very big schools. They took second place. Very proud of him. So she sends ME a text after the tournament asking how they did and I tell her. She sends back "I'm so proud of him and awesome job". I didn't reply and I told the oldest. His response was priceless "whatever". Why she can't call him kills me.

On Sunday the kids went with her to the nephews party. I dropped them off and didn't go in. Said my good byes in the car. Went and did my things. Kids came back and said what a horrible grouch mom was. Not just to them but everyone there. Apperantly OM didn't want to go with. And somebody was very upset about it. She dropped the kids off and left. No convo. I thought I seen OM in car and made a comment out loud and the oldest heard me. Sucked back in my anger and apologized to the oldest for my rude comment. The kids tell me about the party and every thing. Then they tell me about how they already know about some of there presents from mom. When I dropped them off she had them laying out still and they seen them. She knew they where coming but didn't bother. I don't know what she's going to do now because some off the presents where going to be from Santa and she will reck it if she still gives them those presents. Her problem not mine. Had to also buy Elf on The Shelf at my house because she is wrecking that for the youngest two also. Not doing anything with the doll and her and OM are being rude and mocking the doll infront of the kids. So I've been really having fun with it at my house. Kids are loving it!

Have been really feeling second best with her so that's been fueling me for the last week. Have been very nice but not a doormat. Every time I do except a call or text or see her, I say to my self I'm not second best to nobody.

Last night got a call from her asking why the furnace was not working. Told her to check a few things. Finally figured out that she ran out of propane again. She made a comment that she would call and get some but if they didn't come tonight she would just come and stay at my place for the night(her family lives a couple of miles away). Inadvertently I threw her comment that she always uses in our convos "I think that would confuse the kids to much". She didn't respond and we said goodbye. I thought it was a great comeback after I hung up. I laughted to myself for awhile. She called this morning to say that they wanted to charge her an extra 200 because she let it go dry twice in a row. And she was not going to pay it. And asked if I could still call because it's still my property as well. I told yes but you live there but I could see what I could do. She said it was very cold last night and a very cold shower this morning. I couldn't help my self but say I think someone probably kept you warm last night anyways. She said just please call and see what you can do other wise I'll have to just take me and the kids, when I get them back, and go live with my mom or stay at your place. I hung up and have been trying to see what I could do. So she calls me again and asks well did you find out anything. I can't afford it so just let me know or I'll let the pipes freeze and move out. Because I can't afford that and Christmas. I said well because of Christmas I can't help either so we will see what we can do. She said AGAIN well if nothing else I'll come live at your place. I said you know you can't because you are with OM. And I'm not going to live like that. She said you have said that a couple of times now. I know this and I wouldn't be with him. I said I'm not going to discuss this any further. I will see what I could do with the propane company and let you know. I know the propane company isn't going to budge, so I don't know what she is going to do. I'm not letting her stay at my house while being with OM. Not going to happen. And we all know she won't just drop him. So we will see what happens.

Me and they kids are having a fish fry tonight supper happy!


M36/W30
S13,D10,S6
Married 4.5 together 12
Bomb 1/14
EA/PA OM 1/14 still going
Served 2/14/14
Separated 3/14
D paused 6/14
6/15 divorced