Got a call today for a job interview out of state. Trying not to think about it or project into the future (will my WAW talk with me before I take the job - if i get the job, I'm one of two people being interviewed, so 50/50 shot i guess; should i go ahead and file for divorce by a certain date; would a new start be a good idea or a really bad one right now, etc).

It's been really hard for me for over a week now to stay focused on the task at hand. Despite working on PMA and good GAL stuff, my mind is on some level consumed at all times by thoughts of my WAW and sitch. I've even been dreaming of her the past few nights. It's really exhausting...


Me: 39 W: 46
D: 7.5 S: 5
SD: 16 SS: 12
T: 2 (06/2012)
M: 2 (12/2012)
Separation 09/2014. No talks of D yet. No communication since 10/3/2014