Thank you so much, Mozza. That post was literally a rope thrown to pull me out of quicksand.

I will remind myself when these thoughts come through that I must ONLY get through today (or the next five minutes...or minute...whatever...) and the future is never certain.

I could kiss you! smile

ME: 38
BF: 40
T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice)
BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R.
10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW
12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies