Ok, so even though everyone has told you to GAL you just aren't doing it. Soooooooooooooo, how do you spend your day? What is your routine? I had assumed your wife might be the breadwinner because I don't remember you posting about work. Do you work full time?
When my H was living with OW I kept myself so busy as soon as the kids went to bed I crashed too (I was also pregnant with 4 kids so tired anyway) but my point is I was go go go every second so that 1.) I didn't think about H as much 2.) Could sleep at night.
For me I coupon, like the insane spend $1 get $100 worth of stuff and lots of times the store pays me, lol.... well I amped this up even more, I started making $$$ with apps on my phone, I started doing mystery shops (I now make $200/wk just doing mystery shops)
Point being I took something I was already good at and threw myself head first into it and expanded to new things. And making money was nice as I am a stay at home mom. When H left I was working part time but my profession is all contract work and I knew it was ending quickly so I was going back to being a stay at home mom and would need $$$$$ and something to keep me busy.
I KNOW just chillin with the kids will make your mind go directly to your wife. The kids remind you of the family that doesn't exist right now. This is the hardest thing for me NOW. You need something besides the kids to occupy the space between your ears.
Anything you are slightly interested in? Become an expert..... I SERIOUSLY considered going back to school to get my master's degree...... then realized I would be attempting this with 5 kids and didn't want to overwhelm myself. But for you maybe advancing your career would be an ego boost for you which I think you are in need of.
Me: 35 husband:39 Sons 16 and 11 from my first marriage Twins 5 (boy/girl) Daughter 3 Affair bomb 2/27/14 He moved in with ow 3/13/14 OW kicked him out 6/15/14 4/2016 he seeks help for sexual addiction