Mozza (6) + List of success stories

[Mozza]

For the record, I'm in a rare place tonight: I guess you can call it half detached. I'm somewhat upset at W. The phrase that keeps spinning in my head is "She f-ed up". I see how she'll come to regret this, see that things were worth working out between us, that she's lost a good H. I don't feel, like I do most days, that I would take her back in a heartbeat. I feel like I can find a better partner out there, someone who's commitment means as much as mine. I don't feel the usual longing for her. There's a bar that she will have to clear if she wants back in. I usually reason that, but today I feel it.

I'm on a business trip. Everything is different around me and I'm very busy. I'm distracted by work all day. This helps a lot. I had dinner with a good friend. I told him a bit about my sitch. His advice was impressive, like he had read DB, but it was all instinct. Focus on yourself, don't think of them, you're a good person, boost your confidence, etc. Usually, I hint that I'd like W to come back, but I didn't with him and he jumped straight at it, like it's obvious she'll want back in. He wasn't saying that to please me, especially as I was more in a "she f-ed up" mood.
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TLEE86 - I'm grateful you're following my thread. I wish I had relevant thoughts on this dilemma. I'm still processing what sandi2 and Wonka told us, because it seems to go against what I know about my W. But she's someone different now. I try to tap into that special mood I have tonight and I can tell that someone who's moving on, who's mysterious is more attractive. And attraction is what brings people together. Well, I really don't have an answer, but I'll keep thinking and writing about it.