A Lifetime Movie Starring GB #11

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks kml (darn you and your cute stomach ) and GG (with your nice boobs). I don't even know if this is a rant more than just a journal of what happens here. I know some of my emotions are ramping up a bit due to BD anniversary. I think I'm gonna buy myself something deliciously sinful to commemorate the day:-)

So D9 was a little under the weather and I was going to take her to work with me today. At exactly 6:15 am when xh got here this am, s11 started throwing up. It happens every once in a while due to post nasal drip. He will throw up for several hours and then be perfectly fine. As he's heaving over toilet, xh smacks him on the back, tells him to get himself some water and get ready to go to school. I said. "He can't go to school throwing up." (Why do I need to tell xh this???). Xh says okay and takes s4 to sitters.

Later he texts me that he's going to have to skip a weekend with the kids which is really only 20 hours because he's going to a party. I don't engage and just say okay. And I wonder- did I really marry this man? Yes, I did. And I also realize that while this has been the most challenging year of my life this far, I am also pretty gosh darn happy..,,even when I sound crazy :-) I think I would like someone in my life and someone to hang out with even though I don't know how that would work.

And I read these threads about people dating and wanting a R. Again, I think I would like that and I'm not sure how I would I do that? Would a person come to my house and get to know me? Would someone sign up for a woman who sleeps with 2 kids (there is no room for a 3rd), dog and a cat? How would said R ever form? I'm just thinking outloud. I have a very vivid imagination and I cannot see this occurring. I'm not being negative-just honest. Oh well. I'm sure of that time comes I'll figure it out.

Yes. I'm still a work in progress and I will keep chugging along.