Inside my chrysalis 9

[lost18]

Not really familiar with you sitch, just read a few of your last posts and I really feel for you. You're D sounds extremely smart for a 7 year old, wow!

I'm not allowing myself to see anything in it for myself but if he is giving her false hope I might have to remove all of his toe nails slowly, one by one.

Love this, oh the things I wish I could do to my H sometimes! Thanks for the smile!

I'm feeling so lost. I've learned not to hit H with a R talk but man, I feel like I'm in a spiral of unknown. I don't want the unknown to define me but I'm struggling without solid answers. I'm desperate to find pluses in my situation but I'll admit, seeing those pluses, no matter how small, set me up for false day dreaming and hope, which I really don't need.

I am right here with you on this. Have not had a R talk with H since July, at that time he was firm there was no chance and he was filing for an uncontested D. He came home from overseas and has been living in our home since Oct (separate room). No D talk but he has not filed or told our kids. Sometimes I feel hopeful, other times hopeless. Trying to detach but really struggling with it.

The holidays are hard because I'm seeing H too much. I do so much better when I don't see him or have to coordinate with him. This shouldn't be this hard after 5 months.

It's been 10 months for me and still very hard. Eventually we will come out the other side. Hang in there.