Sat - I pick up dog Sat morning, chit chat with GF at front, and seek WAW working in back. I have PMA but she seems stressed so I mirror her mood. She makes a couple of comments about how she is having a crappy time, has alergies, monotany of Salon bus (novelty wearing off now?) and generally sounds unhappy. She is going to work late on remodelling (she doesn't need to remodel anymore to get by so why keep sinking money into this hole?).
I offer to lend her tools and also help. She initially says she doesn't need any tools, makes it sound like she has all these friends coming to help and bring tools. (Note she calls Sun asking to borrow tools).
She gives me dog's stuff, makes comment "if you haven't bought food already" hey at least it is about the future. On the way out I casually mention I'm getting a juice and muffin, does she need anything? She says "I don't NEED anything, but if you wouldn't mind getting me a coffee I would appreciate it" I happily say sure. I know this is small but she is letting me do stuff for her, dog to vet, coffee, bring tools, she still won't let me help with work at Salon. I say if you want an update on dog, call me.
She calls later and asks about dog. Very nice conversation, not rushed. She said she had nightmares last time dog spent night with me, traumatic for her. I said awww, I'm sorry. ANY THOUGHT HERE ANYONE?
We talk about her day and she tells me details of what she is doing and up to. She mentions a wedding party they have in and we laugh about them cackling in the background. I ask if she talked to the lady she made a mistake on yesterday and she said not yet. She said "If you have to make a mistake, might as well make it a big one" I didn't say anything after that comment.
I ask if she heard back from her parents. She said not yet, they are mad at her. I said hmmmm, they do this often when they are mad at you, huh? She said yeah "I'm really trying to figure out my life right now" referring to her decision that upset her parents. IS THIS BAIT I'M SUPPOSED TO BITE AT?
I bite a little and ask if she told them about this unconsciously so she could get their attention and support in making this decision? This was probably too heavy of a question for her because she said she didn't know. She has been breathing heavily into the phone, I think she might be nervous?
She says she best be going. I tease back with ok, best you, talk to you later. Bye in our voice.
Sun - She calls early in the morning and asks to borrow tools. I say sure when do you need them by? We speak for a short while, she says she is tired from a salon friends birthday party.
I think she might have gone back into more of an alien mode after time with her new life friends at the birthday party. I asked if she had fun and she didn't sound like it was that great. I wonder if the no drinking is finally making her realize her fun with them comes out of a bottle.
I get to Salon with tools, PMA up, and she is friendly but not as much over past couple of days. She thanks me for the tools but says she doesn't want me to stay and help. But she wants me to keep dog for another day, that would help her. I happily agree yes. I try to help a little, but she asks me what are you doing? So I took my cue and gently left. Made good eye contact and left.
I'm thinking she may feel safer talking in depth on the phone, she gets real touchy when I try and help with remodelling the salon.
On my drive home, I see WAW car and a guy driving it. This has been bugging me since when I go to Salon, her car is never there. It is not the OM driving it. My trigger had been pulled and my PMA drops big time. I'm again feeling like crap, especially since it is a different guy now. It just feels like I went through all this for nothing and I'm back where I started. Trying to regroup today.
