Hi Gwen, thanks for your post on my thread, wow, so similar sitch to me - its good to hear from you - thank you.
I have been following your threads, I don't comment on many as i really have nothing insightful to say - i am no expert in this. I can however offer my support and empathy during the hard days and my congratulations on the good days.
I feel slightly luckier than most that my S's are older so I am pretty much independent from them; enough to make crazy decisions to move and travel to where-ever the wind takes me. I can make this whole sitch into a truly wild adventure if i choose.
You like I have been a SAHM for so many years, getting back in to the work force is a challenge - but hey, you are doing so well ... when do you hear about the permanent one ? I am impressed - I got so demoralized when I got turned down for everything I applied for - some places didn't even reply. I even got down for a laundry/cleaner job - so I appreciate how hard the job hunt it - so congrats to you.
Hopefully it will help towards your daily bills, its a worry, i know, but its surprising how resourceful we become. From having nothing to do with finances i now have budget spreadsheets for the budget spreadsheets lol. Coupons, bulk buying, cutting out all luxury - which annoys me when I hear of all the things h does and is spending - but I look at it that I am in control of my finances, I am in the black ....even if its only a couple $ each month ....where as he is in the red.
Well done for keeping the house, we were in the process of selling when h gave BD, so I lost mine. Its good for your girls to have somewhere familiar with so many other changes going on in their lives.
My only advise to you is really work on GAL and doing something for yourself every day - even if its just walk, or a bath - its really important to shut the world out for a short time every day.
Journalling has been a saviour, i write everything down, even fictitious conversations, it all goes down, its better out than in and can help stop the movie playing in your head.
You are strong, we all are. We have no choice but to keep living, but you do have a choice whether you stay still or move forwards. Gwen - choose moving forwards ......your adventure awaits you
