My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Um, I just did a 180 out of nowhere that shocked me and certainly seemed to shock H. As I was sitting in the bedroom composing myself after the argument, I had it set in my mind that I would drive into the city a little earlier today and maybe go shopping and just enjoy some time to myself. I was looking forward to it, and still am looking forward to meeting with my friends later.
When I was in the bedroom though, H called out to me that he had made brunch for everyone. I walked out and there was a plate for me too and he wanted me to sit down with him and the kids. We ate and made small talk, then D1.5 went down for a nap and H was laying on the couch looking on his phone. S3 asked if he could watch a cartoon, and H said "Yeah, go ahead because none of my games on on here today anyway." H is very into fantasy football and I could tell there was something he wanted to watch, but couldn't and his buddies always hang out at a nearby bar with satillite service broadcasting every game under the sun. He mumbled something about me not leaving early and said "Maybe I could leave and come back.. Just kidding."
I don't know what made me do this, but for some reason I felt bad for H missing his game, so I said, "I can always shop another time. Why don't you go ahead and watch the games for a couple of hours, then I'll go meet my friends for dinner when you get back."
It's weird. I don't feel like I was being a doormat, but I definitely had the urge to be kind to him, even though he yelled at me today. I guess I liked that he apologized and included me in brunch with the kids. I feel like with H and I, and probably in most relationships, kind meets kind and anger and contempt meets anger and contempt. It might not be a path to reconciliation, but it's at least a path to a healthy co-parenting relationship, I think.