Sun - Called WAW (couldn't help myself there) to ask for her opinon on residual itching from laser hair removal. Had a good conversation, wasn't rushed. Got a little brave and casually said I'm thinking it would be fun going to a movie, wanna come? She said she had plans but told me in detail her plans. We then talked about movies and it was a nice conversation, no real ice wall.
Tues - Called WAW (again couldn't help myself) to give her mortgage interest on taxes. She wants to file seperately. We had small talk about some friends and then I tell her I signed her up for March Madness bracket online, she used to love the tournament. She mentions FIL and MIL may come to Seattle to see 1st round but they are busy and going to Hawaii where we got M. We then talk about SIL, BIL and aunts and uncles and how long they are staying, etc. I say that sounds so fun! We then talk about the dog, a married GF of mine who is a huge networker coming into her bus and how that will be good for her, and how to do the online tournatment thing (shes not good with computers). This might have been too much pursuing for her? She throws out did you have a chance to work on those papers? I said a little, I’m totally stressed out and you should see my desk. She said ok, maybe next week then? She didn't sound so certain this time? I couldn't tell for sure. Hurt nonetheless. I guess I shouldn't have expected anything less.
Wed - I left her a VM in morning telling her I know how much you like it the tournatment and I forgot to mention first game is tomorrow so don't forget to set her bracket. Happy St. Pats day to us non-drinkers (we both quit for lent).
She called in afternoon and said she wouldn’t be able to pick her team for the tournament, excuses on modem down. I offered to do it for her but she seemed kinda depressed and even said so. She said she has been having a couple of crappy days with work etc.
She said she had to tell her Father somthing personal and he was very disappointed in her. She was really bummed out about it. I just listed and said uh huh, and I’m sorry. That sucks. Just listened.
She said she was also bummed out more because of the people calling her from bars drunk already and it makes her more depressed. She said she was really having a tough day. I said uh huh, and listened more.
I said I like quitting drinking since I’m so much more clearheaded now. It makes me feel so much better. Lots of people have called me too and they just sound like such morons. She said I know, they do. I said it would be nice to drink but all these people are just running from their problems and drowning them.
She giggled and I said I’m glad I could at least make you giggle. We talked about her making corned beef and cabbage. I said Yumm Yumm. We then talked about chit chat, dog, my GF that came in yesterday and she was happy about that. The conversation then ended and I said to have a good evening. Bye in our voice. I think she seemed to sound a lot better when we said goodbye, like she wasn't as depressed anymore.
Is it my imagination or are we talking more openly now and she is sharing more details of her life with me? Are we interacting more as close friends again? So my act as if is as a friend, as a best friend, or as someone that still wants to be with her, or drop the rope entirely?
