Its been 3 years since the betrayel , and getting back together....He's fine, I'm still not healing...I'm worrried that it will be like this forever - feelings of worthlessness, hurt,anger overwhelm me once overy 2 weeks or so...I dpn't know what to do. I can't go to a councellor, I feel like I'll just make it worse...I've been trying to 'fake it till you make it'. He is very remorseful, and seems genuinely 'back'...but I'm in a state of mixed feelings in that I don't care if he's back or not, and fearful that its just going to happen again. I keep telling myself don't be stupid like you were the first time round. This happens about 10% of the time. The other 90% is ok...ish.
Just venting here at my old place of venting...hoping it will help me....
