This fear of being alone, the rejection, feeling humiliated, empty, the pain that burns our hearts, the horrible stomach ache that never goes away... it's all part of the grief, healing is painful at first, but eventually it happens.
Now, why are you so negative, why you think your H is done and things will never change? How do you know he is so done with you? Is this just a feeling or he made it clear he is done?
Remember, you can't mind read, you can't believe in what they say and just believe some of what they do. Only time will tell if there is any chance for your M to be safe.
I am now in that phase where I think H is totally done with me but then I ask myself why he didn't file yet, why he text me and call me frequently? Makes me think that only death is forever.
Life keep changing and I am changing and he is also changing...maybe it's done and maybe at some point there will be a tough of maybe things can work out well. I don't know as well as you don't know. Only time will tell.
I know we want everything resolved right away, and we read stories of people that tried their best and yet got the D. But there are some that could restore their M. Then, it's up to us to decide if we have the patient to wait until we drop the rope.
Michele always advise that the work is hard and the road is a long one. There is no guarantees, but there is always hope.