Good luck in the tournament tonight! I'll send some good vibes your way.
To answer your question, yes, I felt hopeless almost every day during the alien invasion. Especially when the OW reared her pretty little head. I learned, through all of this, that I am much stronger than I ever thought I could be. I am proud of that. It gives me so much self-esteem right now (i.e. running around my house in a thong ) and that, in turn, makes me a much more attractive woman.
Quote: WAW has made a new life for herself that doesn't include me and she says she is pretty happy now and she isn't changing her mind.
I'm just an innocent bystander here but her ACTIONS don't convey a person who is happy. Are you making assumptions here? Does this idea come from YOUR insecurity? Remember, W will SAY crazy things...don't listen.
As for the D papers, that is tricky. Have you ever consulted with a DB coach? Dottie and Joanne helped me quite a bit. Maybe this is a question for one of them.
This is not necessarily my advice for your sitch. This is just what my thoughts were about D papers in my sitch. My H said that I could have everything as long as I had the D papers notarized quickly. He just wanted to get it over and done fast. First, he had no D papers for me to sign and I wasn't going to help him at all with this. He would have to go out and get it done. Secondly, I decided that in order to live with myself, I could not sign amy D papers. It went against every fiber of my being. I did not want a D, I did not think it was the right thing to do and I beleived that it would be harmful to those around us (i.e. StepD13). I never had to tell H this, but he would have to make this happen 100% on his own. The resposibility for destroying our M would have to rest, ultimately, on his shoulders. As you know, I was always very nice and sweet to him. I never was confrontational about anything, but I knew if it came down to it, I wouldn't stand in his way, but I also wouldn't help facilitate the process. Again, this is not my advice for your sitch...it's just what I thought in my sitch.
I think that you are very well equipped to answer you own question about this. It would also be interesting what others have to say.
Christine
I am the master of creating positive energy and love in my own environment. I am the source of love in my life. It starts with me! This energy radiates from me! It gives me strength, courage, wisdom and grace!