Toots, You sound a little bit sad... the Holidays can get you thinking.
Are you planning something for Xmas besides seeing SS? Are you spending time with your own family?
Maybe go out with some friends, see people and enjoy yourself?
I feel so close to you, it's amazing how we can like someone we don't even know face to face. You are a good person and sooner then later life will give you a chance to be happy again.
And how are things with H? Any contact from him? This Limbo business is very hard, and the whole detach is a huge challenge.
Hope you take good care after yourself, you deserve it.
