My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Thanks 1foot! I am sorry you are here also. I see you also have small children which makes all of this even more challenging. It's interesting to hear that I can expect my feelings to change throughout this whole process.

I woke up this morning with major flu-like symptoms. I texted my H about possibly coming to help this morning, but once I got my S3 on the bus and D1.5 decided to sleep in, I was able to get a little more rest, so I texted H again (he still hadn't responded to my first text) to never mind coming over. I was feeling a little better and I didn't need any extra help today after all. Sill, it's actually been more of an exhausting day than I anticipated and D1.5 is refusing to nap while I'm letting S3 watch way too much TV, but I guess that's how it goes with kids when you're sick. I think D1.5 might be getting sick too, so that's probably why she can't nap. My H didn't respond to either of my texts, not even my "never mind. I'll be OK. you've already helped out a ton this week. Thanks."
Tonight we're ordering in from the neighborhood pizza joint because I'm way too sick to cook. I'm annoyed to be on my own right at this moment. I wish I had a loving spouse coming home to help me and let me rest while he gives the kids their baths and gets them to bed, but then I tell myself that my H never really did much of that anyway when I was sick, or when he diid he complained incessantly through the whole process, making me feel guilty for being under the weather. Maybe it's better that I'm on my own right now. Wish I had immediate family nearby who could help though.