Journaling Update. Last conversation with WAW was to drop off dog to her at GF from work house since they were having movie night and GF lives closer to me. I said sure and was happy to do it and cheerful.
I called her back after lunch and said I just went and picked up dog food and I will feed her and walk her before I come over so you don't have to drive home and get her food. (Shows consideration and care without her having to ask or us to talk about it.) She kinda seemed surprised and said "oh (pause), okay".
I then said in a very gentle voice I know it has been hard for you with a little seperation anxiety from being without her (in reality its only been 24 hrs while I have not been able to see either one of them for months) but it was very nice to be with her and thank you. She said gently you're welcome and I tried to lighten it up just by saying I'll see you tonight then? She said OK.
I go to drop the dog off, had to mentally prepare myself for daggers and also tried to go in with relaxed, neutral, friend vibe, no pressure. I think I go in too much anticipating daggers that when positives happen I am in total shock.
Her GF buzzed me in and I went up to her apartment. Her GF invited me in to apt (VERY SURPRISED) and I tried to make some jokes and be light hearted. WAW was in bathroom when I got there but when she came out she gave me a BIG smile and a HI (little SURPRISED).
They were giggling and we all chit chatted for a bit. I said I was sorry for being late, but dog was playing with dog friend that WAW knew. I asked if they wanted to see her knew trick (she shakes hands now) and the GFs were excited and said yes and WAW kinda just said sure in one of those I'm sure its cute but reluctant tones but still playful and not cold. Dog is just so cute she does every trick she knows when a treat is out and we all laughed.
WAW approached me and gave me a hug (VERY SURPRISED). I was so shocked by this I didn't know what to do. I don't even remember what I said or did. She did this in front of her GFs from work?
I'm very confused on this one. Was it just her seperation anxiety from the dog and feeling of loss? Does she now know how I feel? Does this heighten the seperation feeling between US and she is trying to reconnect? Like she remembers how good our lives were?
We talked about the Godfather movie and they are starting the series. I made light conversation about the movie and scenes and actors to watch for. They just ordered take out and were sitting down to eat and watch the movie. I wasn't invited so I just said see you later and they casually said bye. I guess I didn't expect anything more than that, but the hug really caught me off guard.
I got back to the car and WAW left a VM on my cell and spoke in a tone I haven't heard in a LONG LONG time. One of those I'm happy tones, asking where are you, I miss the dog, don't forget to drop her off (like I would forget).
