Newcomer With Hope (3)

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Lisa: BF texted me last night after the explosion. He said, "Thank you for telling [OW], I've been feeling guilty and trying to find a way to tell her I f!@#^d up."

I ignored it, of course. OW claims he says he's not mad at me. Who cares?

Part of me is relieved that I was able to tell OW not only his history of cheating AND his inappropriate attentions toward me recently, but my side of our R history, and reveal some of the things he told her that weren't accurate and/or were bold face lies. I don't know why it should make me feel better (it doesn't change anything), but it does.

Moving on for me and only me now, with no hope for the R, although I wish it could be different.

The hopeless romantic in me hopes that at some point he'll realize what he lost in me and decide he made a mistake to be with her, but I know that's unrealistic and frankly stupid.

I have the closure and the information I was lacking before, so when it never happens, I'll be okay.

Getting through these next few weeks after the healing wounds were blown wide open again is going to be rough, but....I'll manage.