Remember the rock that you are standing on. When the waves come crashing in, you will stand strong, even alone when your faith is in him.
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. The greif there is very real. You do have some new skills to help deal with it however. I met a couple women last night at a divorce recovery group that dealt with being a LBS, then later were widowed after being remarried. They both are now bright shining lights in the world for the wounded. I think you are becoming that too. So glad you are getting to lead worship. Keep that up man.
FD.
Me:40 W:39 M:Dec 95 Split: Jul 14 W Filed: 9/16/14 Several Children (including adopted)