Wow, you guys, thanks for stopping by and commiserating with me and lifting me up, too.
Claire, I can have a plan for just me, yes, but I feel like I'm in a holding pattern, you know? I guess I need to move on beyond that holding pattern. Sometimes I'm good about moving on beyond that holding pattern and other times it's like I forget how to do that and slip back into the comfort of wallowing.
Why is wallowing comfortable? That's strange. Huh.
It is a lot of work to pack up the kid and vacation even if it is meant to lift your spirits. During the holidays, it's a lot of work to do anything.
Hang in there, Claire. I think of you often.
Caliguy, lol @ Hurricane Holiday. Well phrased. I gotta say, remembering the exact date of your anniversary for reals sounds like a great 180 opportunity. What is it? Tell me the exact date.
To answer your question, the strongest cool chick I know wouldn't be in this predicament but for arguments sake, she'd take everything in stride and act with grace and smiles that were genuine. I can do that for sure. I'm a pretty strong/cool chick... I just have to remember that. That's Cali!
Calibri, the way you phrased all that had me chuckling... Up until the tree was mocking you... I totally get it. Yeah, I hear you, sister.
I know I'm not ready to fold but I do wonder if I'm holding on to false hope but then again how do I know. He gives me no signs.
Card, thanks for breaking down my stages. Are they similar to yours? Yes, you nailed it. It's a lot of work to stay in a Stage 3 though. And it feels like I slip out of it without even knowing. Like I'll go to bed in Stage 3 and wake up in stage 4. Stage 4 is easy to be in, you know? Until Stage 5 comes along. Oy.
I'd like to think I can maintain and control my own thoughts... Guess I just need to try harder.
D does like Christmas music, yes. She had awesome taste in music. A Christmas party really isn't in the cards this year. The calendar is just so full already that it's just impossible, but I do want to add in some couch snuggle-under-a-blanket time with her while watching silly holiday movies. Gotta fit that in.
I am listening to music again. Music I like that H used to not like. He can't turn his producer mind off and I used to hear all the time how horrible a song was that I sort of liked. Well now I get to listen to it all the way through.
