Hi Lorelai. Just wanted to let you know I read your posts and that I'm sorry that you find yourself here. I remember the pain of these first moments and it's truly indescribable. I applaud your efforts to reflect and gain perspective from this experience. You truly can find positives through this experience even as it feels so painful. The ultimate goal of this process is to become a better person, with the saving of your marriage a potential added benefit.
I empathize with your feeling that you aren't even sure you want to live with a person who can do this for you. Five months post bomb drop, that is where I am at. Know that your feelings will truly change, fluctuate and evolve through this process, in ways that you can't always predict.
Hang in there.
M: 33 W: 33 M: 9 T: 10 3 S's: 8, 6 and 1.5 BD: 8/3/14 Living together
