MLC for crazy making!!!

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So I've been procrastinating long enough about talking to H about our plans to move out of state next summer. My sister and I are planning to book tickets this week to go check out a couple states but I feel I cannot waste the $ on plane tickets if I haven't discussed his commitment to moving with. He said a couple months ago he still would go where ever we went to be near our girls but that was before he moved out. I cannot take my girls away from him in good conscious. So if he says he won't move then we'd have to recalculate a plan of action to move from where we are. We are now in An area that was a temporary move for both our careers and 5 years was our limit. It's a trash filled area and we are both in agreeance this is not where we want to be when our daughters start school.

I've been pretty successful at going dark this week so I'm afraid initiating this convo will nul that for me. Omg I hate this so much! This is not the life I chose!