Maybe you hit the nail on the head? "It's a scary feeling to live without so much fear..."

This could be the crux of how you have dealt with stressful circumstances in the past. You used fear to your advantage and now when you are faced with tough stuff you are trying to cope in the same way but it doesn't have the same effect because you are redefined.

Just spitballing. You are doing terrific. With everything up in the air in Ohio it is probably better you don't have more pages. I think the atta' girl is fantastic!


M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters
BD: 5/14
Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW
D Final 9/17

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”
― Maya Angelou