First mediation session was today. It is scary how ill-informed W is about the realities of D. She is already asking the mediator whether it is appropriate for me to come over to her house and help the kids with their homework. uggh. Worse, she does not seem to realize what a financial blow this will be. She thinks she will be able to maintain her present lifestyle and afford a D. Baby sitters, cleaning lady, she has the whole house to herself in the morning. It is obvious from even a superficial glance at our existing finances that sacrifices are going to have to be made. We have 5 children in private school, we will have two mortgages. Now add attorney fees, mediation costs, counseling sessions, probably counseling for the older children. She wants me to pay for the mediation. She wants to send the kids to summer camp. She wants... she wants... she wants. I told her she will need to get a job. She is reluctant because our S3 is still at home part of the day. But you can't squeeze blood out of a turnip. Yet she remains undeterred. detach...detach...detach...
It has been a very difficult day, but I suppose I got through it intact. what is wrong with her???
I vacillate between wanting this over ASAP so I can move on, and drawing it out further in the hopes of an epiphany that may never come. I feel like such a sucker. On the bright side, I had a session with my IC right after the mediation. He is a sympathetic ear. tonight I want to go to my S12s basketball game and maybe fit some fitness activity in for myself. need to GAL and soon.
