It is unfortunately, conscious or otherwise, a BIG test. They truely believe we cannot change and are waiting for us to revert to our "old" selves and not for them, but for us, WE cannot. W told me today, "You never changed that (a certain issue) and it will never change." I do I can and I will for me. But it must be consistent.
Hang in there. Do not read into anything. I am bad about that, but it does not benefit you.
