Ok, more calm now. I'm chalking up my conversation with her as more defense mechanisims coming out since I got too close to her deep emotions last time. It was very emotional for her and needs some space. She won't let me see the dog because she feels I would get too close to her. It is too much like child custody for her and she doesn't want me to get too close right now for whatever reason.
When she is very emotional and crying and crying, she says she can't see me when she is like that. She can't come to the house and she can't talk to me and can't see me. Is this when she feels the most unsure about what she is doing? I think it might be. Do I listen to her and keep away, or do I recognize this as when she is most vulnerable and doubtful and go see her anyway?
I will not let this get me down. I have developed a list of DOs and DO NOTs whenever I talk with her. I will review them before every interaction to remember what my objectives are. Understanding, validating, kindness, gentleness, care, concern, and PATIENCE. I will always put my armour suit on before I go into another conversation with her to protect myself.
To others out there, has your love for WAS dwindeled as the process has gone on? Do you begin to feel resentful at times?
