Newcomer With Hope (3)

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So, in thinking about it, I feel like the only way to find peace for myself is in completely forgetting BF. Like, as in, avoiding him like the plague and trying to keep my mind off him as much as humanly possible. Go dark, ignore that he exists.

I honestly don't think that he'll want to rebuild with me. I think he's done with our R and this contact -- whatever his motivation, which ain't related to missing me -- is tearing me to pieces.

Is it appropriate to explain this is what I'm doing and ask him not to contact me unless he finds himself in a place where he wants to revisit our R, or should I just completely go dark without explanation and let him stew in his own juice while I go under water and find a healing place?

Sorry about the "spam" posting. My hormones are seriously out of whack and I'm uncharacteristically antsy and anxious today.