My brain knows and understands things my emotions aren't up to speed on. It [censored].
Also, a small part of me has this niggling feeling that if/when I ignore him after he initiates, he's going to equate it to "more of the same" as far as my attention to him goes. I wasn't so good with that during the later part of our R and he felt super neglected.
I'm so confused. I hate this game. I hate this situation.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
