My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Yesterday was tough. I was exhausted from not sleeping the night before and I had a meeting first thing in the morning with my son's preschool that my husband asked if he could attend. My son's teacher is concerned about his behavior, particularly his tantrums and always wanting to be in control of everything. I told the teacher that my husband and I are separated right now and she said my son's been crying every morning when he gets off the bus and telling the teachers he's sad, then crying again when he's about to get on the bus and that it's probably related to the separation. My heart was absolutely breaking and I had to hold back tears for the rest of the meeting. The teacher gave us some solutions to help with his behavior and said there's tons of resources and children's books to help kids deal with divorce. After the meeting my husband said maybe we should talk to our son about what's going on and how Daddy's not living at home right now, rather than telling him Daddy's at work. I'm not sure if it's appropriate to start reading children's divorce books to him right at this moment, but my husband and I are talking today about what we might want to say to our son. I just want my kids to be happy and to thrive no matter what happens.

My husband cried a little after the meeting and said he had to head to work and couldn't talk about all of this right now. He seemed so sad as he was going to his car, I don't want all this sadness and crying for my family. I want us to heal. Unfortunately I'm worried that the only way we can heal is to maybe go ahead and divorce and accept that the marriage is over and is beyond repair.