kml, holy bullseye. Yep. All of that is right. Especially the way I wanted the validation and safety after the train wreck of M#1. You and your "keeper" give me hope.... There is more ahead. H door is still open. Although, I'm becoming more open to the idea that H may never come out of this.
I still want him. Old him. However, I will not allow myself to waste away, waiting for pigs to fly. I have one life. I'm going to live it.
I do need to expand my network of friends. I haven't felt ready. Until now.
uR, I'm going to use this anger to get myself to that next level. I found some groups that aren't dating oriented, but they do all kinds of interesting things. I may look into that.
When S18 leaves in (gulp) two days... It will be the three of us. We will be able to get into a routine. That new routine is going to include GAL. For me.
My focus is shifting more onto me.
If I don't put focus there, no one else is ever going to.
