Hey my friend. I am so sorry you are suffering. Really and truly.
Yea, that anger creeps up on you. I found when it did for me...it was right before I was ready to take a leap.
You know how when you were a kid and there was this big puddle you wanted to jump over? You had to back up to get a running start.
This anger is kinda like that.
It has a purpose. You just dont see it fully yet. And also, it succks what you have and are dealing with. It just does. You have had so many changes in so short a time, of course you are angry.
So, you gotta feel it before you can let it go. Get good and mad. Punch something. Throw something. Scream. Get it out.
Then use it, sweetie, to propel you forward.
I know you will...I also know that you will when you are ready and not a moment before. .
One day you will look back on this time and be amazed at how much you grew.
I got your back. Always. Hope you know that. If you need it, I have someone with a BMW you could use as a punching bag cuz Im generous that way. Hee hee.
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