Get a plan for Christmas Eve, right away, and let us know you have done so. Even if you have to volunteer.
I don't know about aspb but if you have this, get help, it's manageable and I understand with this condition age and strategy assists and eases it. Find out!
Much of what you write about your emotions is is simply human, just normal human, natural human behaviour. You can not beat yourself up over every mistake, no one can be perfect, no one gets everything right.
W is not in a good place and nothing that you do can change that, nothing you say can change that. You can't make her realise what she is missing, she will have to come to that herself. Take a look at Helen fisher on Ted talks there are two very good sessions on why we love and why we cheat. You will find it enlightening and the related statistics very comforting. Only 3% of all affairs go beyond 2 years and very few end up in successful pairings. In fact your W position is the most likely of all to return to her M as her OMs are most likely to be superficial. In the long term she will need a fully attached relationship.
Frankly why would you want to compare yourself unfavourably to the OMs who are clearly so shallow and nasty? Get a plan Vanilla
Last edited by Vanilla; 12/04/1401:07 AM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
