Jim0987 #6 - starting a bit of a rebuild

[jim0987]

I know the snooping is bad but yes i dont really feel much urge to snoop anyone elses phone. the intel has been useful though because its made me much more aware of just how dishonest she is being. she has no issue outright lying to me.

I suppose a positive is that i cant do it anymore as she has changed all her codes and passwords

this year she has the kids christmas eve to boxing day. its part of the agreement so D3 can see her cousin (who also alternates between parents) disappointly it means my W has this first christmas - I would have liked her to have to have the no kids christmas morning experience as that might make her realise what she is choosing.

so spending christmas day at a mates house but ignoring the day, then going to pretend its christmas day when im back with my kids. doing a family feast at my house (it should be 100% mine by then). Christmas eve night will be the killer for me as I dont really have a plan and i will be missing a big part of it all.

dealing with my emotions is right up there on my personal growth challenge sheet