Thank you Ss and daring:).

I'm clearly in need of more restful sleep.



Mad. Mad mad mad mad mad.

You all said I would probably feel this. I said, "oh? I don't feel mad. I'm hardly ever mad."

That is true. Not now.

To qualify..... This isn't rage. This is: How. Fn. Dare you.


I haven't heard from H today. Yesterday, he sent a text reminding me to take steps to get my car refinanced and in my name.

My payments could be lower. That would be good.

I'm just mad.

Warning: déjà Vu. I'm pretty sure I've complained about this before.

His actions forever changed the holidays.
His actions created financial difficulties and placed big burdens on me that I wouldn't have otherwise.
He broke my heart, and it keeps breaking over and over. And he doesn't want me. And I'm suffering. And it's Christmas time. And my kids are gone. And I'm mad.

I can do many things to take control of how this feels.

And I will.

Soon........



Just not today.