asked him to leave, but really want him to stay

[FunDad]

If someone was in your house letting off grenades, I think it would be ok to let them live somewhere else to bring peace to the situation. The pain will subside eventually, just keep working on the detaching method. It does bring healing, but it's still going to hurt. No way around it, only through it.

Glad you are leaning on God. When the waves come crashing in, he's the rock that holds us.